So I've been doing some soul searching lately. And what have I come up with? I'm a bum.

I fit in with one of those moody creative types; inspired and motivated one moment, dreadfully depressed and uninterested the next. Mostly the latter. I've said this for years now, but I guess I needed to be reminded again. It seems to me that without a set dream or aspiration before me, I find myself in a free fall. Perhaps it is times like these that I most need a routined schedule; something to keep me on autopilot until I know where I'm headed.

Since I've quit my job 3 weeks ago, I've pretty much lost all motivation to do much of anything. Sure, I can surf the internet to buy stuff, watch an unhealthy share of Taiwanese love-comedy dramas, and blog on a fairly regular basis, but it's somewhat sad to know that I'm currently just taking up space rather than producing anything of worth.

I really must get things together. For starters, I should start exercising again. I've thought about joining a gym again, but since I'm without a regular income, that's out of the question. So I can schedule that in in the morning, but that means that I'll have to once again join with the regular world out there... and wake up before noon! *gasp* And perhaps even... eat breakfast!!!

I have just about a week before my high school reunion, and I've yet to do any of the tasks that I planned: business cards and a proper website. So for the next week, I'll need to start carrying around a sketchbook and my laptop. I don't think I'll get much work done at home...

I'd also like to relearn some Chinese before I head off on my trip. I attempted doing so 2 weeks ago, but ended up just taking a nap in the library... ah yes, I remember doing that back in high school... and college. I don't know if watching Chinese dramas count as learning... I'm typically just reading subtitles. I'm pretty much brain dead whenever I watch television, and I tend to forget plot points and names of characters. It's rather sad. In one ear, and out the other. Darn ADD. I blame the media for this!

Today I made some effort to clean the house. It's been a while, and the layers of dust on the furniture is proof enough. My room needs a good cleaning. A few weeks ago, my dad said I should rearrange my room. Perhaps I should. I've been thinking about painting my room for a while now... Some crazy bold color. Like a rich navy blue, a neon green, or a dark red. And paint the ceiling black, to rest my eyes from the burning colors.

So I bought my portable folding keyboard and it came in earlier this weeko, and for the most part, it works out fine. I like the tension of the keys and the size when folded up. It doesn't feel flimsy. I'll need to get used to some of the placement of the keys, but that's to be expected. The function key replaces where the caps lock key usually is. I've never really used the fn key before, but I expect that with enough time, I'll begin to wish that all keyboards would have so.

Well, its time to head off to bed now.

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